HERE I AM...
back from dance prac..
i think der's really something wrong with me up der..
the head is throbbing pain again...
cant the headaches just go away??
what causes headaches actually??
MUMMY always tell me coz of my lack of sleep..
really??
hahaha...
maybe...
coz i'm definitely not an early sleeper...
but i'm not so much of an early waker oso..
so what's the PROB WITH MY HEAD?????


anyway, A's results will be out in 5 days time..
seriously....
MAN...
i've never felt so scared n nervous ever...
even on the last results day...
it was like a lil nervous..
but not so much...
basically my results are the ONLY determining factor now..
coz with that...
i can finally DECIDE what i want to do..
coz planning out my decisions..
but if it doesn't happen..
its such a heartbreak..
so i shall just hope and pray for the BEST..
and also be prepared for the worse..
i gotta pull myself thru this...
hopefully...
i can do this...
and hopefully...
i get what i want...
*OH GAWD*
the wait is seriously killing me...


can i say life is such a mysterious thing???
i think my life is..
coz for one moment it goes this way..
the next moment..
it just sway to another corner..
and sometimes...
u noe what u want out of life..
but sometimes..
u just have these DOZEN(no MILLION) qns in ur head...
which CANT BE ANSWERED..
and the more u search for the ans..
the more qns start appearing...
ppl always tell me that they got loads on their mind...
i wonder how alot is alot??
isit alot like mine??
coz when the girl's brain starts thinking..
it cant stop...
and tt's precisely one reason y i gotta keep myself occupied..
so who cares about being tired or busy all the time..
just as long as i'm not sitting ard doing nothing..
tt's when the mind starts coming up with loads of weird qns...
its like sometimes when i pray...
the mind starts talking of the most weirdest thing..
no wonder they call it devil's play...
hahahha...
am i CRAZY???
do u ppl have ur mind talking to u too??
pls tell me i'm not crazy..
coz i'm still sane...
and still living life as a normal human being...
hahahha...
just tt maybe i can go wacky at certain pt of times..
like now...
i dunno wat i wanna say alr...
but i'm still typing...
and i am still typing...
and all tt's coming out are just CRAP...
see lah....
hahahaha...
okie i shall STOP!
ENUFF alr....

finally...
FRIDAY arrived..
the previous days has been dreadfully HORRIBLE..
with two days of WRESTLING with my kids..
I'M ABUSED!!!!!
hahaha..
but well...
basically, there was a reason for all that...
obviously when the teacher says NO to them..
unlike ordinary kids they some will mutter cursing words under their breath..
while some will just obediantly listen and walk away...
but as for my kinda kids...
their way of protesting is by HITTING...
*GAWD*


but today is a FRIDAY...
and what could be better den going out and having some fun..


the boy asked me to join him for a movie with his frens..
and poor boy was soaked in the rain on his way to fetch me..
so had to stop by his place first..
to get himself dried up...
watched THE PROTEGE..
and i must say DANIEL WU is like DAMN HOT lar...
all the guys were freakin HOT..
even ANDY LAU looked damn hot...
though he's ageing...
but the boy's hotter...
hahahha....
and its been a DARN long time since i met jocelyn..
she's still as fine as always...
hehehe...


and when i reached home...
the headache starting acting up on me again...
its like the second time this week..
and dunno how many times this mth..
sth is wrong with me up der...
but too busy to go to the doc to get it checked...
and doc's are nv a fan of mine..
shall just stick to PANADOL..
i think i'm starting to break too many pills and popping it in my mouth..
and the body is not cooperating with the pills...
*GAWD*
such a sicko....

THE MOST ANNOYING AND EMBARRASSING THING HAPPENED TODAY!!!!!!!
and i must say...
i'm still in a state of FREAKING OUT...
today was another dance prac day..
so after work had to head out to YEW TEE..
and as on every other early-leaving-work day..
i took the train from MARINA BAY to YEW TEE...
basically coz i wanted to get a seat and SLEEP...
ahhaha..

anyway...
when the train stopped at WOODLANDS..
a man entered..
and well...
obviously i wouldn't take notice of him..
NOT UNTIL...
as he alighted at KRANJI...
he walked passed me...
and he threw a piece of folded paper at me..
i was already like...
WHAT THE F!!!!!!
why are u throwing paper at me????
and everyone was looking lah...
DAMN EMBARRASSING seh...
and when i looked at the paper...
it was then tt i realise...
he wrote his name and hp no...
and he expected me to call him...
*GAWD*
these kinda tactics still exists??????????????????
pls man....
u are a STRANGER!!!!!!!!
i dun even noe u...
and hu do u think i am??
to be throwing ur phone number on a piece of pathetic paper at me??????????
MY GOODNESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm praying hard i dun bump into him again..
as a matter of fact i dun even recognise his face..
GOSH!!!!!!!

*would you please protect me??*

4 days of holidays..
and i only made full use of it on the very last day..
coz practically most of the shops were closed on the eve, the day and the day after CNY..
so its was worthless to walk around not having much to do..
but it was a great 11hrs spent out of home on TUESDAY..
thanks to dearest KEEN for inviting us to have a gatherin at her place..
(and I GOT HONG BAO!!!!!!!!)



anyways, as usual...
i'm the last one to arrive..
thanks to waking up late..
and thanks to the long bus arrival time..
hehehe...

and KEEN's hse is like so darn big lah...
its like two hse combined to one..
and guess what's awaiting in the kitchen???
PIZZAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ouuuuuuuuhhh.....what delicious food...





and as usual..
my camera always come in handy..
since KEEN's place was like soooo well decorated for the festive season..
we took pics like everywhere...
beside the plants..
at the doorway..
on her red ancient cushion covered seats..
haahahha..
and i almost felt like i was in those MING or TANG dynasty..
where the doorways of the palace had all the red banners..
with all the chinese writings..
heehehhe...
i felt soooo ancient...




after that...
i rushed off to town to catch a movie with the friend..
went to watch GHOST RIDER..
as expected the movie theatres were fully packed...
so we had no choice...
but to book tix using the machine thingy..
and guess where we ended up watchin the show??
at JURONG POINT!!!!
hahahahah...
and i bought new shoes!!!!!!!!!
or rather the fren bought it for my bdae...
a belated one..
ahahhaha...



*i'm missing you..
if u feel the same way...
it means i'm talking to u..*

i've been very very very tired....
i think every morning..
i wake up with my body half awake...
den by the time i reach sch..
my body is waiting to die out..
my mind starts to go on standby mode..
and by the end of the sch day...
everything just shuts down...
and that is when i'll reside on the favourite spot in the train..
the very last cabin...
the seat beside the glass pane..
and as the train moves...
i have drifted off to LALA land...
(y isnt der a PO or TINKIE WINKIE or DIPSY land??y must it be LALA??PO is so much cuter..hahaha....)


anyway...
i think i'm seriously reaching my extreme ends nowadays..
whereby my mind go bonkers...
and start doing all the crazy stuff..
like taking a long train ride from Marina Bay to Yew Tee just so tt i can sleep..
like taking the wrong buses..
like boarding the wrong side of the train...
like getting shocks while sleeping...
somebody save me pls...


i think i need to get a time off soon..
maybe aft performance...
get some slack abit..
go out more...
and have a life more...
ehhehe...
so friends of mine...
please take me out sooon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm dying of tiredness...
*SHRIEKS*

DANCE DANCE DANCE..
hahaha..
*SHIET*
the bruises are coming back to haunt me..
its like only less than a week tt i didnt dance..
and now tt i'm back on the floor..
the blues and blacks are starting to appear again..

OOOH OOHH...
SRI MAHLIGAI(a band of musicians) were der at prac today..
coz they are the musicians who will be playing our music live on D-day..
and trust me...
the sound of a live band...
PERFECTION...
they were there today to put in some notes and music for the dance..
music is the essence of every performance..
laaaaaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
anyway....
i'm tired now...
gotta snooze...
the eyes are startin to close...
good night everybody...
and may all of u have a good week ahead..
excuse the MONDAY BLUES..
it comes once every week..
but for all u noe..
it ended just like that..
hehehe...

hahaha..and when the fire started..
it was BBQ-ing time...
so much food lar...
but i guess, standing in front of the pit and being disturbed by the man..
made me as black as the charcoal alr is...
cldn't resist the temptations of the delicious food...
nvm...
tmr got dance prac..
can shed off some fats..
hahahha...
let's see...
i ate the satay...
the noodles...
the sausages...
the chips...
and two servings of DELICIOUS almond cake...
(the cake was so nice lah..)
esp since i've been having a strong craving for the cream on the cake..
hahahah...
so must satisfy the craving when the opportunity came..

- KEEN n ME!! -

it was nice to meet up with new people..
esp ppl from another foreign land..
since the girlfriend was from MYANMAR..
so most of the ppl who came were BURMESE..
and trust me...
for a moment..
shiks n i tot we were in a foreign cty...
hahaha..
coz we were lost in TRANSLATION...
but they were a bunch of nice ppl..
from her family..
to her friends..

the night passed sooo fast..
we were having so much fun..
but i guess all good things come to an end..
the boy came right on time..
and i reached home right on time too..
feeling more than tired and exhausted..
*SMILES*

and tmr...
a tiring day at dance prac awaits..
three more weeks to performance day...
*GAWD*
tt's cool...hahahah

one word to one person..
read my lips...
you came into my life without me realising it..
and guess what...
u disappeared from my life without me realising it too..
u have just ruined sth that was meant to be so true..
but i guess...
that head of urs was just too big to even try to accept certain facts of life..
dun try to teach someone lessons of life..
when u cant even be taught...
once again...
read my lips...
just one word to be said to u...
and i really really wished...
i didnt know u...
but it has already happened..
and i dun regret upon things...
in fact i'm so darn thankful that i've come to my senses...
you are just like the others out there..
and like i said...
I DUN HATE PEOPLE UNLESS THEY MAKE ME HATE THEM...
and guess what???
u're hated...
i dun care if i sound like a bitch talking about all this...
u turned me to be like this..
u made me react this way towards u...
DUN CROSS THIS GIRL...
or she'll definitely cross u out...
truthfully...
i've never in my whole life been so angry and PISSED at someone before..
i guess u taught me the real meaning of anger...
hope that it'll subside soon...
coz i see no point in being angry over someone like you..
u're just not WORTH IT....
read my lips again...
one word says it all...

as i was walkin up the steps of the LRT station..
i saw a familiar face...
DARLING LIZ aka lypopo...
gosh...
dunno how long it has been since i last saw her..
and what's more freaky..
i dreamt of her the day before..
and now she's appearing in front of me..
hahaha...

and then...
i met another VERY VERY FAMILIAR face too...
listen to this ar...

while i was chatting with liz in the train..
2 chinese guys entered and sat beside us..
den one of the guy..
the bigger sized guy sat dwn..
and he cldn't stop STARING AT ME...
YES!!!!!!!!!!
he was practically lookin at me lah..
he think i dunno..
i cld see him from the corner of my eye lar...
but i didnt get a clear image of him..
so nvm....

den at one of the stops...
another chinese guy entered..
and he sat opposite me..
so the two den joined him by sitting beside him..
and i was like..
good....
now i can see who is this bugger who's staring at me..
and when i looked at him..
guess what??????
he was BRIAN KOH ZHI YUAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like my gawd...
and as usual..
he gave me that smile...
then there i was laughin to myself...
that KUKU made me look like a kuku lor...
hahahhaha...

frens of BRIAN...
yes...
he has changed...
as accordin to him...
he got his hair permed in THAILAND...
and now his hair is damn long n messy...
hahahhaha...
and its dyed...
but he's still the same him when he opens his mouth..
he's sooooooooooooo BRIAN...
hahahahaha...

wanna wish "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR BRO"....
someone has turned 13...
waaaahhh...
so big alr seh...
but i'm still old...
*BLUEK*

ITS A SUNDAY!!!


then it was off to dance prac for me..
took my time to travel from town to yew tee..
but i got the girlfriend to keep me company..
and crowded buses really get on my nerves..
dance was aite..
talk from the teacher made me realise certain things abt life..
and my direction towards life..
for now..
let me get my results first..
and the rest will fall into place after that..
and once again the father fetched me from prac..
and as we stopped by our FAVOURITE COFFEESHOP..
JLK KAYU..aka..wood walk..
the sister and i got a lil crazy in the van..
i guess we were just relieving some stress..
dun u think so lil sis???
hahaha..
u're nuts..
n i'm just a peanut..
its different okie..
btw..
excuse our CRAZINESS..
its just us...

- i swear i look damn RETARDED -

- she think she's glowing among the darkness( glowing mad ) -

it was freaking tiring at dance prac yest night..
i gotta keep improving in practices..
must dance like the seniors..
performance is just a mth away..
must start to practise and control my breathing..
if not i may end up having an asthma attack..
*GAWD*

anyway, i planned to come to sch a little late today..
coz basically its a THURSDAY..
and i hate thurs coz must go sch early..
but luck wasn't on my side..
i was asked to come for the morning session..
which is even worse...
reached home at 12 last night n must wake up at 6 the nxt morning..
MAN.......
tt's crazy....
n me...
I'm so not a morning person..
and......
the roads were freaking jammed like nobody's business lah..
made the father n i so damn fed up..
hahaha..
can u imagine both father n daughter cursing at every driver who tried to cut into our lane..
FREAKING pissed us off lah..
hahha..it runs in the blood...

and i guess when i was with the boy..
the roads were freaking jammed again..
i dunno what's up with me n the S'pore roads..
eveytime when i'm far away from home..
the expressways just gotta jam up..
n this time it was the boy n me cursing the irrtitating drivers on the road..
hahhaa...
gawd...
i cannot be a driver sia like that...
i may end up losing my patience at others..
hahhaha...
but it was a splendid night out with the boy..
just trying to relieve the stress load that's on me..
n the tiredness that i've been feeling lately..
and the stupid headaches that just keep annoying me..
i think there's something wrong with the girl's head...
its cracking up bad again..
*ARGH*