exactly 1 hour to book in.. and i am feeling weak.. lazy and sick... my temp is 37.1...
i think i overworked myself.. i am an overworked and under paid recruit.. cauz gotta do loads of things.. haha..

drill comp is tomolo.. hope we can get some where... cougar have been winning.. its our tradition.. but somehow i feel it might not b this year.. pray for the best.. prepare for the worse..

anyway.. i am 10 days short to my passing out parade.. bmt coming to an end.. wad's left for us now is the 24 km route march and also our standard obstacle course.. luckily.. i got silver for ippt.. if not got to do loads of training.. i guess we are goin to have alot of drill training for the parade and and if the drill team wins.. we still got to train.. on top of dat.. i gotta do some other stuff... haiyooooooo... and i dunno to sign on or not if i get the offer.. cuz all the uni reject me... sad sia... nvm...

enough bout ns stuff.. seem like i have been playing soccer for the past few book outs.. and i shouldn't have played today.. since we had a tiring week and 24 klik is on wed........... man.........
endure and excel... world cup goin to start soon.. yeah... i getto watch some of the early matches... i duno who to go for man.. but.. brazil might win it man.. maybe england too... bets anyone?? haha...

anyway... life been good i guess.. i am coping... juz the physical exhaustion and the sianess of ns.. but.. i goin to miss them man.. esp my section mates and my buddy... susu.. ahhaha... den again.. it also means i get to spend more time wif my baby.. or so i hope..

y i sound so in coherent and sad??

maybe i am tired... "shag den cannot think"

but... i know dat my dearest sayang will always be in my heart... muackz...
love u baby...

been a really really long time since i last entry-ED something..alot has happen lately..n i guess life is always filled with its ups n downs..

first and foremost..ARGH!! it breaks my heart to say this.. but none of the university in S'pore has accepted my application..i guess, its alright..i've gotten over it coz i am being given a second chance to sit for the A levels again..n this time round i shall definitely make full use of it..with just less than 6mth left to the big date..i am now back to a full time student..just tt i dun have to go to sch now..n there is definitely some pros n cons to that..

Firstly..with no school..means no teacher's notes n guidance..n that will be a losing point for me coz a teacher's help is always needed in big exams..but looking on the bright side, i've got friends who are also going to be sitting for the exams together with me..and friends in need are friends in deed..i trust that phrase..furthermore, what's more important to me..is the support that my parents n DEARIE'S giving..tt's all that i need to complete my problem of overcoming the disappointment of not being able to enter a uni..

anyways...to make me even more happier..i've gotten my PSP!!haha..been waiting so long to get tt..and thanks to dearie..he was able to find me a shop tt was able to charge a lower price for tt super expensive thingy..haha..i guess he's always right..oki sometimes..but sometimes he's wrong too..HOWEVER..i must say, most of the time..he is like the other voice in my head tt always give me the right advices and always asking me to do the right things..n tt's why i love him so much..

speaking of him...HE'S POP is in 1 and a half weeks time!!!yippeee..cant wait for that to happen..den he'll be having his block leave..which means more time to be spent with him!!haha..however..now that the PANORAMA performance is just around the corner..practices have become more n more extensive..practices start at 8am in the morning n ends only at 5pm in the evening!!!gosh!!but i guess its oki..its a work out for me..been putting on the fats again now tt i'm not working n i'm so stressed out!!

why is life always like this??when will all this just end....

first and foremost......... LIVEPOOL WON!!
yeah! and gerrard the man man.... yeah............... captain marvel! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

okie.. 6 days... still sick.. so no point lah.. haha...
anyway.. played soccer today.. lose 5-2.. expected ah.. wont comment... hahhaa...

goin back to camp in 3 hours time.. and baby is lazying on the couch watching tv.. poor her... first i was gone for a week.. den i got sick real bad.. den never really give her much attention.. and guess wad? goin back to the jungle again.. so she will be wif out me again for 3 days... but.. nvm lah.. it will be over soon..

anyway.. today is mother's day... a.k.a.. MY MUM BDAY! kaoz...
if i was generous enuf i would be broke... cuz my 5 yrs and 2 month anni was on the 13.. mum bday is 14 plus mother's day.. and bro bday is 16... wahhhhhhhhhh... lucky i not generous.. hahha...

5 yrs 2 months? long meh??
52 years longer... so lets make it happen... k baby?

love u loads!

My one and only... Muackz...

Time pass really fast when you're having fun..n its seems like this 6 days tt dearie's back home from camp went by much much faster den when he was outfield for 7 days..those 7 days crawled by really slowly..but now when i'm having so much fun having him back home..it has to end so sooon...n unfortunately..he'll be going outfield again nxt week..but thankfully its only for 3 days...

Anyway, this entry is especially for u dear..coz as of midnight tonight, it marks our 5yrs n 2mth anniversary together..hmm..tt's really long..hehe..we shall wait for another 5yrs more before we tie the knot k?? by then hopefully we're financially stable n ready to commit ourselves to one another for the rest of our lives...hehe.. throughout the 5 yrs tt we've been together we have definitely gone thru alot together..both good n bad times..n our love really did see us thru difficult times..i'm thankful to God for giving me the opportunity to be with someone like you..n i am glad u gave me the chance to be with you..i shall always pray for our love to be strong n everlasting..for there's no one else that i want to be with other than u...

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love u dearie...

ps: PLS..drink loads n loads of water..k??promise me u'll do tt...

i am goin to dedicate this entry to 2 women in my life...
1 is the one who deserve my utmost repect..
the other who deserve everything from me...

a woman who sticks by her family and never forget her values after all this years deserve all the respect she can get.. even when the odd is against her.. even when she is physically drained.. she is there for her family... one who stays calm when the road get rough.. staying patient when she is being challenged beyond her capablilities... my paternal grandmother is second to none.. and my grandparents should be the model of a couple..

speaking of couple.. i hope i can stay as loving as them for as long as i can wif my dearie.. she deserve my love more den anyone else in my life.. in fact.. she has become my life... everything bout me will lead me back to her.. every night before i sleep.. my mind would wander deep in my heart where i can find her... being together for so long has been really challenging.. but.. i muz say.. i enjoyed it.. and very glad we are pulling tru.. cant wait to spend my life wif her.. things have to wait.. cuz my life gotta be stable first... as for now.. i would give my best to her..

Muackz... love u my darling angel...

okie...i guess my wish for someone to book out early has come true!!!in fact it was so true..tt he came back even earlier than expected..haha..but unfortunately the reason for that was because he fell sick..aft 7 long days in the jungle..dearie was down with a terrible fever..n i really mean a terrible fever..seriously, i have never seen him so weak n helpless in bed..just lying in bed with his body temperature rising to an absolutely high amt of 39 degrees...gosh...so poor thing..

but..on the bright side..he is fine now..BUT..he cant get out of house!!unless of course he inform the higher authority abt his whereabouts...gosh..i didnt noe NS is so strict..but good for somebody..teach him some discipline..haha..

anyways, my whole body is aching like really badly, esp aft a whole 5hrs of dance prac yest..n it was even tougher yest..with so much moves..n we learnt to dance chinese dance..GOSH!! it was even tougher den i tot it will be..unfortunately tt was just chinese dance..we have yet to master the steps of the Indian n modern dance..n tt's y its called fusion dance..hehe..but it was really cool..

so here i am at dearie's hse..keeping him company..but he's alright now..back to bullying me again..hehe..and i definitely miss it...love ya loads..n pls tkcr of urself...

halo... i am back..... prematurely i muz say...
i am goin to be at home for 6 days!
why??....
cuz tekong doc give me mc for 3 days.. and seriusly speaking... i have never been this sick in my life.. when i was at tekong my temp was 38.6.. when i got home. it got worse.. 39.6.. now its at 38.8... grrrrrrrr....

oh nvm.. field camp was very very draining i muz say.. and it sucks cuz i was unable to keep in touch wif the special one in my heart.. tho she so far away.. she will always be in my heart..

thanks dear for visiting me... muackz...

Still counting dwn the days...
Till i can hear your voice again...

missing you everyday..
as loneliness grows within..

Finally..i went SWIMMING!!!haha..manage to persuade daddy to drive me n my two bros to HOUGANG SWIMMING COMPLEX coz we were just too lazy to take the bus..n u noe how much it will cost me to take a bus to n from home??ALOT!!haha..we have been wanting to go for a swim for a very very very long time..but with me busy at work..n they boys busy at school..i guess we couldn't find time..not till now..since i'm a free lady..n its a holiday thanks to VOTING DAY..haha..

so we swam n swam....
n we swam n swam...
n we just keep swimming...
just keep swimming...
it was really cool getting to be in a pool of water...
n esp since its FREE!!
so u dun have to worry abt wasting it...
n thankfully too...it was not pack..so we had the whole pool to ourselves..
oki maybe not entirely...
but at least we cld swim freely in it...haha

Where'd you go?*~

I miss you so*~

Seems like its been forever *~

that you've been gone*~

Please Come back home*~

Its been awhile since i last posted an entry..The days have been usefully occupied doing what i love the most..DANCING..its been a passion of mine to dance since i was young..n indeed i have been involving myself in lots n lots of dance performance since the age of 13..anyway, since i'm not working, might as well burn off the fats by doing something tt i enjoy..

TPJC will be having their 20th Anniversary concert on the 4th of July..it's got a cool theme to it too..PANORAMA..haha..like wow..anyways..20th anniversary..tt would mean this girl here is already 19..gosh i'm getting old..haha..but like what we dance girls say, veterans but still young n heart..according to cikgu, he wants to finish the dance steps by the end of the mth..n the dance is a really cool one too..its a kind of fusion dance which conbines the traditional moves with the new modern ones..sth tt is being practiced today..a taste of the young with a little touch of the old..so tt we young ones wont forget our roots n origins..presevation of the past..haha..

this new dance is really so physically demanding..n me being me..after such a long time of slacking my butt off at home..i practically dun have the stamina..but still hanging on..remember...reduce the fats..reduce the fats..haha..the dance requires loads of balancing..energy..n a new move..carrying n throwing ppl into the air..haha..cool...anyways..practices are getting tougher n tougher by the day..but after a tiring day at practice..the gals will always find time to relax at our fav BUBBLE TEA SHOP!!been a long time since i last slurp on the milo ice blend there..hehe..but it was really really NICE!!!n yummy waffles too..

miss the school days...
and more importantly..i'm missing him DEARLY...
been close to a week now tt he's out at field camp..means 1 week confinement at the jungles of TEKONG..
no news..no sms..no calls...gosh..I MISS HIM!!
anyway..good thing..its the Vesak DAY hols on fri..so it means..EARLY BOOK OUT..hopefully....

The specs i pick.. The heart is urs.. Switness is u.. And i love u too...

I LOOK WEIRD WIF THE SPECS!!!

but.. something for a change.. haha...

LOvE the specs..LOVe the heart..LovE the sweetness...LOve HIM...

hmm...its the LONG weekend..yippee...if i am still a student i will definitely be thankful for this three day break..but unfortunately sch times are over...but as for someone...he's thankful for this long weekend..coz he can be out of camp longer..haha

anyway..cant celebrate labour day..coz i'm not working haha..basically i shall keep on brooding over the whole unemployed thingy..coz i am in need of money..n i'm in such a complicated situation..now when i'm wanting to look for a job sth gotta come in between...basically going back to sch for dance practices was alright..not until i was told tt practices will also include the weekdays..if tt's the case..how am i going to go to work??it will clash with one another...aRGH!!hate situations like this...but...i guess choices need to be made..n since i've decided to devote myself to dancing..esp since its like my passion..so i shall go for it...besides kelly services will always have a temp job waiting for me..so till then i shall wait for their call..hehe

so yest was a wonderful day spent with dearie..basically he has blogged all abt it..not much details..coz we just spent some time together n went to visit his grandpa at the hosp..hmm...n lookin at his grandpa's condition reminds me of my late grand father..gosh..i miss him..but well..everything has to come to an end..n people always leave...be it in a good way or bad..accepting a lost is a difficult thing to do..but no matter how much we choose not to..we'll have to..

look like my dearie haven update... hmmmm.. muz be sleeping..
anyway.. i am goin back to my second home tonight..

but...... before dat.. i muz say dat i really enjoyed this weekend... all thanks to my dearie.. details are not provided... haha.. no lah.. we juz got to spend time together.. u noe the feeling u get when u get to spend ur time wif the one dat u sorely miss the most.. dat is how i feel..

and i bet.. the next book out will be even more sweeter.. cuz i will be gone for a long time.. and i wont have any contact wif the outside world.. maybe have ah.. hopefully the commando mosquitoes can suck me dry den pass it to the peeps in the mainland... haha..

anyway.. i have nothing to talk le.. sian... maybe.. i should talk bout something..

how do u noe dat she is the one??

i think.. to put it simply.. u noe she is the one once u are able to accept her for who she is and willing to do more den ur capablilities juz to make her smile... cuz love have to come from the heart.. sacrifice have to be made sincerely.. more importantly... both of u wouldn't wan to let go when u are in each other's arms...

dats all.. so long and good night....

MUACKZ...
take care my darling angel..

LOVE U LOADS....