its been a while since i've posted an entry..been really busy with school..entertaining my cute little special children..n no..i dun get bored of them..coz everyday i get to meet a new face..with an extremely special behaviour..

anyway, life has been a stressful one for me lately..every morning it is busy with school..and when i return it is busy with studies..sometimes, when i am really really tired and down..part of me just loses the confidence to move on and face the whole A-level challenge again..but i must thank god for putting me back on track..n always making me reflect on why i have decided to take a second shot..I WANT MY NIE DEGREE...

when i hear abt friends who are starting their uni life soon..i must admit,part of me feels jealous and regret..but there is no point in regretting on the things tt have already happened..its time to move on..and its close to 3 mths left..so what the heck..might as well i just give in my best and get through with it again once and for all...

to my dearest man..
i guess we are always being put to a test..and it seems like sometimes we cant always get what we want..its difficult to accept it..but i suppose somehow, we'll have to accept them..we've been through loads of life's challenges together for the past years..and i noe there is still a long way ahead..can we make it through together??i'll pray hard tt we can k?nothing means much more to me than you do..n our love will see us through difficult times..
MUACKZ!!
love u dearie....

ITS A WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!(only....)and its already third day at sch though..i mean work..haha..

oki..jus a little info about my life..currently i'm embarking on my journey to be a Special Education teacher at BALESTIER SPECIAL SCHOOL for the next 7 mths..and for the whole of last week it was training week..more of getting to know how to manage your class and how to manage the children..

and this week it was START OF SCH for me..thankfully, we weren't thrown straight away into the classes and told to start teaching..it will be a week of class observation and orientation for us new teachers..for some, they have already known which child they will be taking over from the previous teacher..but as for some..we had to go round from class to class discovering new kids and new learning environment as we were still not attached to any child yet..Y???i'm unsure still..but still have yet to ask my head of programmes(HOP)..so currently, my co-teacher and i, we will come to sch early in the morning..wait for our HOP to inform which teacher is on MC as tt will be the class that we will be taking for the day..so for the time being..the early mornings are often filled with anxiety and surprises for me..coz i will be faced with a new child sometimes..

and....
so far..i've met 4 children..with 4 different characters..but more importantly..all of them are so CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!they may be autistic..but gosh..they are really smart..maybe because the level of kids that i'm taking are all high functioning which means they have the potential to go into mainstream schools...haha..but seriously..i am so proud of these children..their passion to learn is just so high..it really touch my heart...but like the teachers der say..with that, comes great amount of patience and dedication to actually teach the children to reach tt certain level..

anyway, the past few days was also a period of orientation..which is also another word for training lah..hahaha..so we get to sit in our classes till 10am before we proceed to the conference room for our training..n tt's usually not the fun part..coz its really too much theory..sometimes my mind just shuts off especially aft a tiring day before that...

as for now..i'm hoping that i will get to have a permanent child soon..and not be floating from classes to classes..coz i really want to settle dwn with a proper child and class to teach..but whatever it is..i'm happy being around these children..coz they bring light to my life..and they really make me smile every single day...hehehe...

to dear liz - "yes you can call me darling...haha..and you tkcr too k??maybe i can learn some childcaring skills from you..hahaha..miss ya loads..keep in touch..*SMILES*"

The BF's HOME!!!instead of wasting time going to and fro as according to the bf himself, decided to meet him at JURONG POINT..since he's camp is some where in jurong..anyway...finally i got a chance to savour my fav hotplate beancurd from the BANQUET there...haha...

AND....i got to watch PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN dead man's chest...got to see JOHNNY DEPP!!!!hahaah...he was darn funny in the show..and of course get to spend time with my dearie..just enjoying the air condition and NACHOS!!!!!oooohh...the cheese was super delicious!!!and to top that...the show was so eye catching..n also interesting..coz the ending definitely left me asking for more!!!can't wait for the third movie of the TRILOGY...i'm gonna catch tt....going to find out wat happens to my dear JOHNNY...hahaha...

so darlings was pretty worn out today..can see it by his face..and on our way back..to the east, there was this seriously RUDE *apek* ah...seriously sia..we were sitting at the two seater corner seats in the MRT..when at one of the stops..this apek came in, and he just like shouted..OI!! and pointed at the sign above us which was the give was to the elderly sign...that i can und lah that he wants a seat..but pls lah..if u want to remind others abt giving the seats up to others remind urself first can?????obviously the train was darn pack..so aft we gave the seat to him..there was a family with a small boy..n guess wat???the small boy had to sit on the MRT floor..coz that STUPID...INCONSIDERATE apek...he occupied the oth seat with his stuff..which was pathetically a plastic bag!!!!!!!!sakit hati seh....poor boy...really...if only i had the courage to tell the old man off...but then again..he's old..let god do the punishing instead...

manage to stop by PAYA LEBAR's THIS FASHION to get my pants before my work starts on mon...haha...

DARLING...i love u alot k??n i know we can be a pain to each other at times...but i hope we will not stop understanding our weaknesses k??coz i believe that's what tt's keeping us strong..and i am missing you alot already...tkcr orite???dun be so moody lah..kalah perempuan u...hahaha..

POTC DEAD MAN'S CHEST is OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am SO in love with JOHNNY DEPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Handsome is HIM!!
and he is HANDSOME!!!

hahaha...i can't wait to catch this movie..
he makes the show really humorous..
he's CUTE!!!!!!!!!

Its been two days since training started...and there's still 3 more to go before real teaching starts..

it was definitely a FUN two days...

getting to und and being put thru the situation that children with special needs face every single day...

how they are filled with anxiety, mixed feelings of scared, frustrations, isolated and more importantly INNOCENCE...

not knowing that they are different from the rest..

not knowing that their actions are not like what normal beings perceive as..

sympathy is not what they seek...but its the strength n hope that they carry with them every single day of their life..

i'm definitely anxious to start my career as a SPECIAL NEEDS TEACHER..

its not easy...

its definitely tough and challenging..

but being able to make a difference in these children's life..

definitely makes the effort and experience WORTHWHILE....

dear god...may you protect me thru this journey...and give me the support n strength that i need..

By request... i shall blog..

cuz i really feel lazy and no mood to blog.. i am all alone at home and its goin to rain.. it does not help when u noe u gotta book in later.. to make matter worse u juz had a very tiring week and a gruelling week is sure to follow.. and as if it is not enuf... u are goin to be in charge of the people for dat week.. oh mind..

juz to recap.. den.. i forget wad we did the whole week.. ok.. basically mon was all lecture if i remember correctly.. and tue was ippt.. i got silver.. yeah? but before dat we had to climb a blody hill in the very hot sun to do some compass thingy..
wed was life firing.. fun to a certain extend and boring to a another extend... oh.. i forgot.. mon was suppose to have some navigation stuff but something cocked up.. haha..
Thurs was signals lecture all the way.. and fri was... SOC! tiring shit.. den followed by signal test and stuff.. yest got M203 technical handling and BOOK OUT!

Yes! my company is slack.. but when come to training.. we all die.. our uni are soaking wet when we train.. But.. we still can order food outside.. and we did.. have macs and kfc.. got other who ordered pizza.. another thing bout my company it seem.. the book out timing seem to be getting earlier and earlier.. we are suppose to book out at 5 all the way till the the end of the 10 weeks i guess.. but on the first week we book out 4.. second was 3.. yest was 2... haha.. might as well tell us not to book in.. hahha.. oh i forgot.. i cant wait till national day.. dats the week i got the whole week off.. haha... cant wait man...

anyway.. this week... never do much leh.. but still had fun.. Watch superman wif the biggest idiot in my life.. haha.. joking lah.. went to watch superman returns wif dat little honey bunny cutie little pie of mine.. haha... Superman was gd to me leh.. haha... nvm.. and hmmm... basically dats wad i did loh... and i stayed up to watch soccer but end up watching only the first 5 and last 5 min of the first half cuz i got KOed...

So now.. let me touch on World cup den.. sadly... Never get to watch the matches.. many thanks to our spore govt... i didnt know who i was rooting for.. haha.. first round i wanted OZ to win it cuz they were gd... german was there too.. so were the argentians and of course.. Forza Italia.. ahha..

I wan ITALY to win.. and i think they will becuz of one man.. FABIO CANNAVARO! He is the man of the moment and no one can contest him for the player of the tournament man.. haha..
another thing bout him is dat.. he is short.. but i am shorter.. but... haha.. we are similar.. hehe...

So.. the last thing would be for my baby.. dear.. things might get ugly.. but its okie.. juz stay true to one another and love each other sincerely.. some times.. all we gotta do is juz to give and take.. k?

Muackz.. love u switheart...
Dun miss me too much k?

somehow that night..it seem shorter..n everything ended just like that..it was sad to say goodbye to everyone there..esp to my dance partners..kak t(elvy), sab(nora), farah D, hazzzie wazzie(hazwani), juju(juliana), honey(hanita) and lypopo(liyana)..gonna miss them LOADS!!!n i'm especially going to miss dancing..mummy has banned me from dancing for the rest of the year....luckily not the rest of my LIFE!!hahaa...love you gals...

i dun feel like blogging.. but i am really bored.. so here i am..

book in time is 2100 at boon lay.. another long train ride.. boring...

i dunno y.. but i am juz feeling so down.. dun feel like i belong to there.. like sian..
is it me or the peeps?
bmt was like dat a first but the feeling quickly went away in like less den a week.. but now.. 2 weeks stil like dat..

oh well.. wad to do...

anyway.. played soccer today.. Kampung all star 2nd match in a very long time..
stupid things happen ah.. but.. wad the heck.. we won anway. the score was like 7 or 8 to 3..
And of all people.. Mok decide to put the 2 shortest peeps as centre back when the team shortest man is yours truly...

i think i am the shortest like every where i go.. except for when i was in bmtc.. Wif lionel being the shortest wif a ht of 154 and me at 156... man..
But i duno.. being short.. i like being me.. haha.. there may be disadvantages..
yes.. gerls prefer taller guys.. but.. would a taller guy means dat he will love u the way u wan him to?

i believe the same goes to wealth and other worldly stuff...
happiness is found in the simplest place on earth..

Your heart.. Mind.. Soul...

Lucky for me.. I juz need only one.. and dats ju..

wait.. i forgot i have been tagged..
seriusly.. i dunno wad's weird bout me..

1) i have 2 pillows and 1 bolster on my bed.. but only use the bolster.. go figure...
2) wear onli certain shirts and jeans from the widely available range in the cupboard..
3) Talks alot but is actually quiet on the inside.. go figure again..
4) Cant sleep wif out cover my feet wif a blankie
5) am a one man army who is afraid of goin alone..
6) i confess i am a bit afraid of darkness.. cuz cant see mah.. later trip and fall.. (its juz an excuse lah)

I dunno who to tag.. like this one my blog like dat... nvm..
i shall tag...

STEVEN GERRARD
WAYNE ROONEY
LAMPARD
JOSE
RONALDINHO

Things juz happen.. so fast..
And i fall.. even harder..

One's gone.. there goes another..
How many more will go?.. juz because of one..

Should i leave too? or pretend they are gone?
Or i stay till there is none?

Anonymous

The above is juz an excerpt of the complexity of life and choice.. i wont comment.. dunno who wrote it also.. nvm..

anyway.. dear.. thanks.. muackz.. love u alot...




MUACKZ!