Time check..its 12.36AM..n i have just arrived home like a few mins ago..y??not bcoz i went out n came home late..coz of DANCE REHEARSAL..but it was at the esplanade..so i shall not a big fuss about it..haha..but still..it started since morning n ended only at 10pm!!more den 12hrs spent at the esplanade..THEATRES BY THE BAY..

met darling Lizzie(Macguire)..haha..okie i shall call u by ur real name oki??anyways, met darling Liyana in the morning before heading to sch..tt's one thing good when u have friends staying close by..however, sadly, sekarang baru kita nak gi sch same2..nak balik same2... in the past when we had 2 yrs of seeing each other almost everyday, we didnt want to do it..sekarang baru nak..haha..but hey..its never too late for anything..especially starting a friendship..hehe..
by the way, we said that we will meet at 8.15am but ended up both of us were late..coz she went to buy lunch while i was cooking lunch..haha..but no matter how late we were, we're always der just in time not to miss anything..*winks*

that's the CONCERT HALL..where the PANORAMA performance will take place

upon arriving there we got our security passes!!!i shall take a pic of my pass to prove that i was once an 'artist' in esplanade..haha..COOL!!alah..setakat star karat je..but still something eh..ppl are paying $30 bucks to see us lah!!so we entered the backstage of the ESPLANADE and...WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH..the place was so COOL!!so many corridors..so many lifts..oh oh..the lift was as big as my room!!serious seh..n there was even a 'GREEN' room n an artist lounge..where most of the food n drinks were located..seriously man..i have always seen the Esplanade as just an architecture of art..with its nice view of the marina bay n its well maintained facilities..but how was i amazed when i stepped into the heart of the theatre itself..the concert hall was superbly decorated n grand..with lots of gallery sittings n a double storey stage..n lots n lots of blinding lights..n SMOKE MACHINE!!!haha...i guess Singapore does have something to show to the world..next to the Sydney orchestra hall..anyway, i can go on n on about the whole place..maklum lah..org jakun katekan..haha..

the mirror is of full use to us...

in the dressing room..trying to keep ourselves occupied..

the rehearsal was aite i must say..but it took such a LOOOONNNGG time lah to finish..i was already dying of tiredness n lack of sleep..but den manage to persevere on till the finale..n JENG JENG JENG..time to go home..n ade org tu nye pasal lah..nak berhenti pat 'UMCI' lah..abih tu in the end bus lambat giler lah..haha..but its oki..at least i got someone to go home with..since the bf is no longer avaible to fetch me home..*SOBS*

shall say thank you to LIZ..for always waiting for me..to ensure i'm not being left out..and always to make my journey home a worthwhile one..haha..RITE!!

miss you dearie..come home soon k??MUACKZ!!

P.S: Photos compliments from Liyana

Oki..seriously, when i first got tagged by someone i didnt noe the purpose of the person doing it or why i was being TAGGED!!!haha..but that was like mths ago..but rite now..I KNOW!!oouuhh...tis is fun..haha...

was doing the daily routine of blog hopping n TA-DA.. i was tagged by dear LIYANA aka LYPOPO =)

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

• I can eat chicken rice without eating the chicken, but just the rice, coz that depends on the condition of the chicken
• I can't swallow pills
• I'm insanely, madly and truly fascinated with ELMO!!
• I have fingers as toes, coz the toes on my feet are long n skinny
• I like to sleep with pillows all around me - it makes me feel cuddled
• Burping loudly eases my stomach, disgusting but nice.. =)

I'm tagging:

Dearie(wan)

Wan wei

Kak Nur

Abang Azfar

Iryani

gossip corner..guys actually do that..

yummy..creamy..chocolaty..CAKE!!!!!!

den we went to the 24hr food court at pasir ris central..to have some hot milo or tea..N..$4 worth of fries..the fries was really a mountain full..n hot drinks with fries..haha..not a good combination..but we managed to eat them..till, according to aliff, only 50 cents worth of fries are left..haha..the whole 4hrs at the coffee shop was spent catching up about alot secondary school days..all the hilarious moments which left us laughing till we teared..haha..n all the sad ones too..but we didnt cry lah..haha..

fries galore..that's coffeshop fries..not french fries..

the girl..n the guy..which is which??

it wasn't until 4am in the morning..that we made our way back to the chalet..not to sleep..but to watch BUJANG SENANG..it was a darn hilarous movie..haha..it wasn't till 6am in the morning that we snoozed..one thing good that the bf wasn't there..coz i had a whole bed to myself..while the rest had to share 2 ppl to a bed..ehhee..den as morning came..we went back to the coffee shop again to have breakfast..PRATA!!!n that was the day i found out that there was actually prata plaster!!WTH!!it was just egg on the prata instead of inside it!!haha...

satu botak..satu rambut dah berdiri tak leh turun..satu rambut panjang giler..

and not long after that we had to part..coz the room was taken over by the GF's brother..n that means i'll have to miss them again..coz if not for our yearly raya gathering..its not always that we meet..SOBS..

25th June 2006,SUNDAY

today..since Murni had 4 free tix to either wild wild wet or escape theme park..we decided to make use of the tix to enjoy ourselves further..POST BDAE TREAT..haha..since the BF back from camp..he was able to join me, murni and abu to a SPLASH at WILD WILD WET..haha..it was SO SUPER FUN!!unfortunately there was no camera to capture the moments of fun..so the first ride was the ULAR-lah..haha..it took me some time to figure what it means..n the ride sure made me figure it out..haha..den was the tunnel slides..haha..had lots of fun screaming as we slide dwn the long n dark tunnel..SCARY!!!coz it was so dark!!haha..N the most thrilling ride of all..the SAMSING SLIDE UP!!!seriously!!!it was SO SERAM!!!!!n WTH!!the guy made me scream my lungs out when he made the boat tilt at the edge before letting it GO!!hahaha..hati mcm nak terkeluar seh..haha..the tsunami pool was aite..lots of drinking of pool water..thanks to the rapid waves..haha..WEEEE!!!

and that was definitely a wonderful WEEKEND spent with my loved ones..but it'll be sometime before i get to destress myself like that again..esp since its like 4 more mths to the A's n work is starting soon..

To those who need to know.. wan to know.. or couldnt care less.. i have been thrown to SISPEC Alpha company platoon 1 section 2 bed 1.. so much details.. haha...

Sispec... training is xiong ah.. crazy man.. but gotta take it anyway.. and.. i may or may not have a medical prob.. gotta go see Medical officer again on tue for some review... and i hope my knee injury wont get aggravated.. anyway.. lucky my company a bit slack.. every one is nice.. maybe one or 2 lah ah.. siao man...

i dread the tot of having to take at least 1 hour ride of the mrt from pasir ris to the other end which is boon lay.. sian man.. no one to send or fetch me anymore.. sian..

i am kinda sick and tired of army life.. FULL STOP...

anyway.. this weeken i was suppose to book in at 0730 to do some duty.. but thanks to my company sergeant major.. he let us havet he week end off.. and i am thankful he did dat..

CUZ THIS WEEK RAWKS MY SOCKS!

I had my baby dearest for the whole weekend... it was really nice.. wont go into details..
But we went to wild wild wet wif the besties.. Abu and murni.. had loads of fun there.. really fun.. haha...

now i am shag.. thanks to soccer and fun... haha... but i am glad i had this week end..

oh and i met a couple of my pri sch frens there... maybe its fate.. haha...

I AM SHAGGED...

nvm.. shall leave now..


and dear.. thanks.. i love u loads..
Cant wait for the day...

it was REHEARSAL day today..together with the band..the choir..the guitar members..the drama people..and ISKANDAR ISMAIL!!!!tt was the second time he came dwn to sch to witness the run through..not the whole thing of course..but the music which he composed..GOSH!!he's so cute..( for his age )hahaha..

yup yup..ISKANDAR ISMAIL is the composer for our fusion dance song..n i shall give all the credit to him for putting the notes together to create a great dance tune..its not easy to be thinking of all the 4 ethnic tunes n rythm n actually being able to put them together so tt it will end up to become a SONG!!hahaha...but he's ISKANDAR ISMAIL..n like duh..he's talented..hahah..

oki...now that the whole thing is coming to end soon..i gotta say..i'm goin to miss dance alot alot..i dunno where else can i contribute my dance vibes to..haha..maybe shld join nxt year's intake of sri wana..since i missed this yr's intake...haha..but hmm...shall look into it further..haha..oooouhhh..the BF is coming home in two days time..again..y cant it be tml???den u'll miss out all the fun at the chalet..hahaha..but its okie..it will be paid for..

n i've got a prob..i cant sleep!!gosh...
what's wrong with u eyes??
you cant wake up in the morning...
n you cant sleep at night...
what can u do eyes???
pls close....i want to rest..i'm tired...
SNOOZE..............

i know i've been saying this for the past few weeks..but i'm goin to say it again..MY LEG HURTS!!haha..tt's what happen when u stop dancing for almost a week n den u start dancing so vigorously again..the bruises r appearing again..but thankfully it will be gone after awhile..

its been a mundane week for me..esp since the boyfriend is back in camp..he's being posted to SISPEC..dun ask me what tt is..some army jargon..haha..but what i know..the camp is all the way in JURONG!!gosh..sry dear but i cant possibly send and fetch u to n fro like i did when u were in BMTC..haha..even though tt was in Tekong at least the reporting area was only at the Pasir Ris Interchange..got straight bus to my house some more..haha..

so..the day to the grand event for the sch,PANORAMA,will be nearing very very soon..in fact its just like 1 and a half weeks more!!gosh..n WTH!!what luck can be cast upon me...i just received my entry proof for the A's this year..n my MLA oral is like on the same day as PANORAMA ah..gosh..having to rush all the way to SRJC at 215pm for the exam..den rushing all the way to esplanade..like amazing race sia..hahaha..hopefully i dun get lost..i dun have the bf to guide me ard..yes yes..i am a singaporean yet i am alien to some places in the country itself..*SHRUGS*
so dance was aite today..normal routines n more practices..i must say..its kinda interesting how the whole dance is being put into play..unfortunately mummy cant go coz of the really really expensive tix..haha..i can und..

"Mama nak beli tickets tak??"
"Dah jual eh??Nak nak..."
"oki..kalau gitu mama mesti get ready $30 tau"
"*STUNNED*...."
"Mama betul nak pegi.."
"*EMBARRASSED-ly*...tak nak lah..mahal sangat.."

yeah..tt's my mother..haha..she's always there to support me..Gosh!!shld have given her some credit during Mother's Day..hahaha..since i've given credits to my father on Father's Day..

anyway..this weekend will be wonderfully spent..coz its the BESTIE'S bdae..n her parents are having a chalet for her..lucky WOMAN!!but unluckily..she doesn't know how to pick the rite date for her party..she made it on the friday night when her bdae is on the sat night..WOMAN!!gosh...how can u let opportunities of fun moments to slip away just like tt??to the brother's hands some more..hahaha..oki..wont say much..not my chalet anyway..just hope to have fun..

for now..i wld like to snooze..the fever is back..
thanks to the nights of watching soccer again..
haha...

MISS YOU DEARIE...
MUACKZ!!

So.. here i am.. sitting in front of the comp.. when someone else is at the beach.. thanks eh for not inviting.. haha..

and hey.... i was tired... so i fell asleep.. not my fault.. the tv told me to...... and the air con and my comfy bed didnt help.. serius.............................................. okie.. i give up..

This week allowed me to do wad i do best... rot at home.. slack... its around 36 hours till duty calls.. dat means i am off for a week.. lucky thing bout sispec is dat.. they dun have confinement week.. i like.........


Today not so happening like yest seh.. cuz today i slept my day off after a tiring fri.. not forget thurs too...
thurs was shopping wif dat lovely little baby called my gf...
Fri was prayers.. den shopping.. den was pig out wif the guys at downtown.. and head off to the beach till late for az gf's bbq...

and everyday was soccer day.. either watching or playing...

haha..

come monday.. is gd bye freedom day!

i dread dat day...

tata..........

Let me just squeeze in a short entry before i go n snuggle up to bed...(coz someone who said he'll be watching tv..has fallen asleep)...haha..

anyway, for the past whole week or so..i have never shared so much happiness with the one i love since a very long time..n i must say..i dun want the week to end..coz when nxt week arrives, i'll have to let the bf off to serve his duty as an NS men..fortunately this time he is not in some island..he's in Singapore..but..he's being send to the opposite end of the country..WTH!! n so unfortunately..he's stuck in camp again like in bmt...argh...however..he will always be missed by me..n i will definitely look forward to our nxt outing again..hehe..for now..we shall let the money rest..n stop it from going out..n never in..haha...

SNOOZES at 4.31am...

*GULP*

The last 2 entries seem to be so emotional and so much angst.. and its written by 2 different people mind u... first by me.. as in erawan. the other is by.. oh nvm... haha.. okie lah.. written by my angry baby.. *GULP* -better not say anything wrong-

Anyway.. this block leave have been very fruitful and very VERY costly...

-Played soccer and met up wif old frens..
-watched a couple of movies..
-ATE ALOT!
-slept very little.. thanks to World cup and spendin time wif the baby..
-spend time wif my baby.. and literally SPEND alot of time..

i had 380 in my bank.. now i am left wif 80... and its not spend in a week.. but in 2 days.. and on top of that.. baby paid for some of her stuff too.. lets recap..

-clothing.... damn.. this is diff.. let me count... ($120)
- psp game.. need for speed.. ($50)
- FOOD.. this is a bit diff too.. ($80+++) cuz i cant remember wad i had.. told u i ate alot..
-Transport.. this really kills man.. ($50)
- okie this one.. i juz say k.. Hp bill.. onli mine - ( $42)
-slippers ($13)
-Movie ( $19).. we onli watch 1 if i not rong...
-LOVE (PRICELESS)

Dats about how i drained my money away.. okie.. dats how we drained our money away this week.. and u can see our account dwindle juz like dat.. so much for wanting to save for marriage... haha.. doodoo..

Anyway.. been posted to sispec.. gotta be at pasir laba camp at o8oo-0830.. thanks alot eh.. i stay in pasir ris can! didnt get to ocs like i wanted.. there are alot of stories bout dat.. i shall not say anything.. i might get sued by the govt..

nvm.. means i gotta leave my poor baby behind again..
no worries dear.. i be back soon..
and i still love u k?

The monkey and the Baby

-ME BEING ME IN UNI-

-My heartbeat- cant live wifout her in my heart

MUACKZ..

How it amazes me..
How hypocritical human beings can be...
How much hatred one can have..
How abusive language can turn out..
How hurtful words can sounds...

I dunno how i shld put this..but it saddens me to know how people are always much more aware of the mistakes of others but never theirs..how the wrong of others are never the wrong of theirs..n how expressive they can be in describing the negative things of others but never about themselves..n it saddens me more that bloodlines are broken n lost just becoz one cannot agree with the other..

I guess after close to 19 years being born to a place called earth..i have seen what life can turn out to be..n through people around me..i too have seen the realm of life out there..how much cruelty there is..n how much hatred exist..to all u hypocrites out there..let me tell u this..u dunno how true u are to others until u know how true u are to urself..if u cant even say the real truth about urself..den better dun spurt out utter nonsense about others..

U may think he's a liar but ask urself this..are u always that truthful??
U can say he's a snob..what makes u think u're so humble always??
U may think he's selfish..do u think u're always so willing to give away everything that u own to otherS???
U think he's an ass..but hv u asked urself whether u have ever been an arse too??
U wanna ask him to F*** off...tell that to urself first..

please people..no one is being excluded from the other names..n no one is being excused from bad mouthing others..so before u wanna say sth abt the oth person..think of the things u have said n done too..n look back..whether what u r about to say has happened to u too..

as for u humans out there..u wanna think badly about me..u can do so..but please..dun ever let me find out what u have to say about me..coz things will turn ugly when i noe the truth..oh yes..the truth really hurts..it cuts deep right thru this heart n when it does..dun ever think u wont feel the same way..u have the guts to say things about me..u too shld have the guts to face the consequence for ur actions..i am a person who can be nice to be around with..but when u mess with me u're messing with the ugly side of me..n u can go round telling others about what i did to u..those who dunno me..u can FUG off..but to those who do know me..they will tell u to FUG off..

this girl has its limits..n she definitely has her good n bad sides..just like everyone else..no one here is an angel..n no one here is a saint..everyone is human..n human make mistakes..only god noes how i really feel deep inside..n only he has the rite to say or do what he wants to me..he protects me..n he loves me..for i love him..coz there is no one as great as the Almighty..

Wad will u do when everything u stand up for crumble?
wad will u do when everything u have disappear with out any notice?
Do u sit there and watch?
Do u have the strength to get by each day?

Will anyone noe or und?
Will time fade the pain away?

How do u mend something so abstract?
How is it impossible to forgive and forget?
Do u wait for a miracle?
Do u keep on praying when all hope is lost?

I will sit here waiting.. hoping and praying..
For someone.. to give in and make everything whole again
Or i can juz walk away.. while the heart batterd wif pain
While the name fade in shame..

The day today is SUNDAY... time... 2045....

Its diff this week den all the other weeks.. juz last week and for the past 9 weeks i have been taking the fast craft or slowly marching back to company line at about this time.. but hey.. presto.. for this week and next week.. i will be here.. BUT!.. i gotta go to my posting on the 19.. dat suckz man...

oh well.. a week's break is better a day's break.. much better den an hour's break.. and definitely better den water break.. too many breaks already.. speaking of which.. when will i be breaking wif pmc again... shall do it this week.. seem like everyone wan to date me on tues.. i dunno y...........
Sorry yo.. dat date have been reserve since.. shit.. let me count... 5 yrs......... and..... 3 months??

5 yrs 3 months... any significance? cuz.. i dun think there is any significance in numbers.. like there say.. quality is better den quantity... but.. i guess.. in relationships and life.. time help u to grow... for better or for worse.. its up to individual to decide which path they wanna take.. cuz ultimately.. its u who decide how to lead ur life and how u wan to be.. there may be things dat cant be changed.. for example height.. but hey.. accept dat fact.. God make everyone different on the outside.. but we are all the same on the inside.. we all still have the same feelings and need our hearts and brains to live.. limitations exist only in our minds.. okie.. not all limitations.. but get the drift yo..

wif dat.. concludes another entry by... hmmmm.. let me sign off by this name once..

DEEZZEE


and dear.. i didnt forget u.. but i noe u do.. cuz u watching x-men...
muackz..

That's him being his notti self

anyway, since my uncle's house is just beside my granny's, obviously we went over to spent the rest of the evening there..as usual..when the boyz get together there is a lot n a lot of NOISE..so while they went downstairs to play..the girls were having a good time upstairs..haha..basically it was just me..n my 3 other younger couzies..they are much much smaller den me..so we had some baby n child talk..haha..n GOSH!! BABIES r so CUTE..i really really adore them..haha.. but for me..when i have a family of my own..2 kids is good enuff..one to hold on my right n one on my left..hehe

Correction: i wanna have 4.. 1 on my left and 1 on my right.. 1 on dearie's right.. and 1 on his left... haha!

Hey yo...

First and foremost... i would like to say sorry to my dear baby.. for not giving her the attention for the past 2 days.. sorry darling i fell asleep.. dunno y i so tired.. now my body is aching... and i really cant wait to see u.. muackz.. missing u alot..

as u can see.. i am back in one piece after the grenade throw... yipeeeeeee.... anyway.. my pay should be in by now.. YEAH.. means i gotta spend it on my baby.. haha.. but its okie.. muackz..

oh.. the pic is taken by gab on the fast craft back after hand grenade.. dats wad u get when u put 2 botaks who are bored.. haha.. another gd thing bout being a private is dat u dun have to march and u can book in in civi.. its still 9 days more before another round of torture start.. lets hope its somewhere i wanna be..

and u dear.. better let me know when we can go out k?

muackiez.. hehe..

Another tiring day has just passed....

it was another day of dance prac at the sch..started off at the wee hours of the morning(8am)..n obviously me being me..i had a tough time waking up..n to make it even more tougher the weather was cool n cloudy one..GOSH!!can u imagine that..its like the most perfect moment to snooze!!!however, had to drag my smelly self all the way to the toilet at 730am in the morning to ensure that i wont be too late..haha..nanti farah marah..

Seriously, the cool morning breeze and shower really made me feel so lazy to go to sch..but no no no..must go..need to EXERCISE..haha..as i board the bus saw Liz..she wasnt heading to sch though coz she had to work..den in the bus..got a call from the other half of me..Juju..she was making sure i wasnt late..n the other timekeeper, Nora..was also at the other end of the phone making sure that i was really on the way to sch..haha..

so as i arrived sch..practices was already ongoing..but hey..today was a good day for me..i wasn't the last one to arrive..haha..elvy came aft me..n surprisingly the girl who always gave me a scolding was late too..haha..but all was forgiven due to the unforeseen nice weather..haha..k k..enuff abt the weather..(BUT IT WAS REALLY A NICE WEATHER TO SLEEP!!)hahaha..
anyways..we learnt new steps today..i must say the no of ppl on the stage were just too ENORMOUS..tt the whole stage look cramped..hopefully the esplanade stage is not as small as that..coz it is really big but since half of it will be occupied by the band of musicians..only a small portion of it was left to us 32++ dancers..but we manage to sort things out..

i think my legs are giving way soon..my thighs are beginning to hurt..it really hurts that when i run i can feel the stretch n pull of the muscles..n that really hurt me so badly..plus all of the bruises that i got on my knees n ankles..all thanks to the spinning n turning..haha..it was an OUCH day...

BUT.......to make my day today..the long awaited call finally arrived!!it was a missed call actually..but i guess i was just too anxious to know who it was from so i decided to call back..it took me a while before i got thru coz the line was really busy..but thankfully it was a worthwhile call returned..the lady on the other end of the line picked up the phone n told me that i am being offered the position as a contract teacher at Rainbow centre..YIPEEE!!!den they ask if i am willing to accept the offer..like DUH!!!haha..i have been waiting so long for tt ans..n ALHAMDULLILAH!!SYUKUR KPD NYA..my prayers have been answered..so i guess its back to work really soon..haha..

however..sadly..i didnt get to meet the bf today coz due to the rain..his grenade could not be thrown on time..haha..i meant the grenade throwing was being delayed..n to make it worse it was enlisting day today so they had to be held up even longer!!!GOSH!!haha..so i had to make my way home alone..but i decided to spoil myself with a hotdog bun from GRAB THAT BITE!!..n i must say the new york chicken hotdog was DELICIOUS!!haha...AYG..must treat me to that k??haha..

finally..he's back home safe n sound..but all tired n worn out..but no matter what..i dun love him any less..in fact not being able to see him has made me love him even more..and as the days pass..the love grew..as the heart longs to see him..dear u better not be tired next week..coz its outing week..haha..before u go back to the life as an NS men..ARGH!!

when men become soldiers

070606..That marks the end of BMT for my dear soldier..finally he's out of Tekong n back home safe n sound..BUT..unfortunately that does not mark the end of his NS life..still got 1 yr and 6mths to go..*shrugs* Currently, the bf is waiting for his posting results..which will only be known nxt fri..n hopefully he gets to where he aims to go to..he has definitely put in his best in camp and more importantly in every task that is being assigned to him..

but as u know dear..life is never fair..there is always a twist in it that can make us jus look back n wonder where we did wrong..we dun always get what we want..but dun worry k?i believe that everything happens for a reason n only god knows what's best for us..no matter what happens..i will always be proud of u..orite??

so met his parents at 2pm at pasir ris interchange..n boarded the bus which brought us all the way to the SAF ferry terminal..n the moment tt i enjoyed most!!THE BOAT RIDE!!haha..i think tt's the only think that makes me happy going to TEKONG..( i dun always get ferry rides lor..so must make full use of the moment ) hehe..so the bumpy but smooth ride on the PENGUIN ferry was a really cool one..esp with the air condition n the nice view of the sea..haha..oki enuff of that..
anyway, as we were led to the parade area i must say the heat of the scorching sun really got on to us..it was so hot!!n everyone was like practically fanning themselves..n there was this lady..i must mention her..coz she brought those batt operated fans!!! gosh!! i wash so jealous..u can just see the wind from tt fan blowing her hair..and as for me..i had to use most of my energy to fan MYSELF!!haha...

the parade started off with a drill performance from the winning company at the drill comp last mon..it was really cool..reminded me of my drill comp days in secondary..one which i never participate coz of certain valid reasons..hahah..so the usual routine of the parade took place..

The march in....

The inspection...

and the March pass...

And den the parents or relatives were invited down to the parade ground to have the honour of putting on the caps on their sons..awww...how sweet was that...i must say it was an very special moment for the guys..or should i say soldiers..haha..n i'm really proud of u dearie!!

The Bf n his father

N guess what??i must say its a small world..as i was walking on the parade ground to meet the bf..i saw my dear couz..another soldier in my life..haha

Asri my couz....

And so that was how yesterday was spent..i must say it was almost a whole day spent at Tekong..n everyone was so tired n hungry by the time the whole parade ended..the evening sunset was so beautiful..it was really a wonderful time spent...n so it was off to the boats again..haha..n also a smooth ride back home...

I LOVE U SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!

MY SOLDIER..MY LIFE..MY LOVE..MY DEAR..

The day dat was waited upon for 2 months................................... POP LOH!

BUT!!!!........ have to go back camp in 5 hours and 50 mins juz so i could throw a hand grenade........... grrrrrrrrrr... it wasnt my fault that i had fever when they throw wad... but at least its better den having to do 24 km route march.. gd luck to them man...

anyway.. pop was gd.. but the wait sucks... i would like to thank my parents and my baby for coming.. hehe.. and my commanders for all the guidance... bmt was fun fun fun... esp when people starts to bond... i dunno where i will be posted to.. but it seem dat my sgt say all melayus will confirm go sispec... there goes my hope of ocs... hope i can go there lo.........

i am tired... feel like sleeping.... hmmmm....

shall go and dream of my baby..
muackz.. love u darlings..

Another chapter is gonna close soon.. the end of something means the beginning of greater things to come... BMTC 1 graduation is on 7 june.. The day when boys are officially soldiers..

tho u might not have any idea who they are.. i still goin to say wad i am goin to say.. congrat to neo for clinching Cougar company best and edric for getting platoon best.. and also khai on being company best shot.. it seem dat all the company best come from my platoon.. and more importantly they are in the same section as me! And my section have decided that whoever get into ocs gotta treat everyone else pizza.. i hope i do get into ocs...

Bad news is that my knee is hurting.. doc say its nothing serius.. hope the doc is right.. if not.. i have make sure my baby take care of me 24/7.. can rite dear? The knee gave way on mon after running.. and it was further strained the next day when doin soc.. but.. the 24 klik route march was the one dat took the toll.. and as if dat not enuf.. i found myself guarding the island of tekong the very same night.. all dat equal to fatigue.. muscle ache.. and other stuff..

I am kinda dowsy now cuz of the pain killers the doc gave me.. shag till cannot think..

anyway.. watched da vin ci wif dat cute little darling of mine after her tarian.. the show... i dunno leh.. too tired to concentrate.. haha.. confuse man.. but the best part is not the movie.. but the company of the onli one in my heart.. she made it all worthwhile..

hope she lias wif my dad to go to my pop parade.. i may or may not participate.. juz pray..

anyway baby.. if u are reading this.. its gd cuz... CONGRATS! YOU CAN READ!
hehe.. and ur prize would be me! For as long as u wan.. for eternity..

*huggies*
Love u baby dear!

First n foremost...gotta make a birthday wish..to my dear dear cousin..who has always been the cheery side of my life..though he may not be there with me often..but he always never fails to make me smile n laugh..he is definitely a medicine for sadness..n for that..u stay happy always oki??n remember to be optimistic too..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG AZFAR!!!

Its the start to a new month..n that gives me exactly 5 mths to complete my revision before the A-level atmosphere sets in again..it has been a whole week of studying for me last week..but the start of this week was a tough n physically demanding one that i didnt have the time to study..putting those worries aside..right now i got my dance practices to focus on..n a lot n a lot of dance practices..

the week started off with three straight days of dancing..starting bright n early at 8am and ended in the wee hours of the evening at 5pm..its as good as working..gosh, if only i was paid to do this..i'll be more than happy to do more of that..but unfortunately its just a volunteer thing so its loads of work n no pay..haha..well, me being me..i'm definitely not a morning person..so waking up so early in the morning is more of a chore..n i was coerced to get out of bed despite the tiny voice inside my head telling me to go back to sleep..which of course i did..haha..ended up coming to sch at 9 or 10am instead of the scheduled 8am..but that's alright..coz basically not much is being done in the morning..its not until aft lunch time that rehearsals got serious..n i mean dead serious..if its not for a 10min break..the words of the instructors will be.."oki..again from the top.."



anyways..i have a confession to make..
I miss MOHAMED ERAWAN very very much..
been sometime since i last saw him..the last time we went out he wasn't in a really good mood coz he was very very tired..aft all the physical things that army demand him to do..it really worn him out..so i had to be the understanding gf n let him have his space to relax..and of course that came at a terrible price..haha...i didnt get to see his happy n crappy side of him..what more getting the attention n love from him..

BUT...he's coming home a little early this week..n he shld be back home by tml night..so.....dearie..u shld have ample time to rest before we meet again to go out oki???
N u promised u'll take me out for a movie..so must make sure u dun be tired oki....
hehe....

till then..i shall wait for his return..n till that moment arrives..
I'M MISSING YOU SO!!!!

love u dearie..