sometimes..
when you don't expect things to happen..
it does happen..
but when you start expectin and hopin for things to happen..
it just dont...
some ppl may think that things are just happening agst their wishes..
i believe that..
if its meant to happen to you..
it will..

received the most unexpected phone call from the boy..
and i really really appreciate the effort he made..
to talk and clear things up..
even though it took a long time..
but at least he didnt left things hanging..
keeping me in the dark forever...
i told him what i wanted..
what i felt..
what i thought..
i shall give him the credit for being able to talk so maturely..
and not give some shitty excuse..
after the talk..
it definitely..
made me feel so much better..
and i'm sure he was too..
whatever happens from now on...
its a matter of fate..
i'm taking things as it is..
accepting things as what its suppose to be..
*you meant every word that you told me..
i did too..*

and received another unexpected call from the friend..
who sincerely apologised for the misunderstanding that happened..
i know that i dun go straight to the point when it comes to talking abt ppl in my blog..
i dun use names...
i dun even use abbreviations of names..
so sometimes..
ppl get the wrong idea about who i'm talking abt..
or who i'm directing my words to...
but i guess it takes a person who knows me well enough to know who or what i'm talking about..
and when you dun und me from within..
you wont know the real me..
*but i've told you that i dun blame you..
in fact it was a small misund..
just hope that you wont jump to comclusions again k?*

met up with the person whom i've shared close to 6 years of closeness with today..
and surprisingly things when well..
i expected the meet to be as emotional as the previous one..
but i guess things are not always the way that you expect it to be..
and seriously..
i think my life right now is like a big QUESTION MARK...
coz when ppl ask me things..
somehow...
certain things..
i just dunno how to ans..
like i said before..
i do know what i want..
but whether ppl can und what i want..
that's another different story..

hahha...
the girl is just complicated..
so you still think you can handle me??
think again..
i shall say this out loud..
*LOOK AT THE GIRL FROM WITHIN*